Did not go down but these jeans now fit. Old Navy…12 yeahhhh. (Ya’ll know why specified old navy…lol)
I am so excited that I’m actually making progress. I do have to remember to focus on something positive whenever the scale does not go down. Today I decided to try on a pair of jeans that I’ve had in my closets for 2 months. I bought them 2 months ago but I could not fit into them and now I can 🙂 I am doing the green smoothie in the morning and stuff like that but I also will eat a salad or veggies if I want to so I am not subscribing to the only drink shakes thing because for me that does not work. I like food, I like the taste of food but I just have to make better choices but me getting my nutrition only through shakes is just not gonna work so I do what works for me and hopefully by seeing my journey you will do what works for you!
I have failed at posting everyday but I will say this, I have been posting most days and I will continue to post and there’s no way to go back and catch up but believe me by the end of the year there will be at least 320 post out of 365 days and I think that will be able to give someone a good idea of how this works in reality.
I also do a lot of my posting through voice to text. My goal is to just get the information out so periodically I will go back and update when I see a mistake. If you do see a mistake please just get the gist of what I’m saying and not focus on the mistakes.
Wake up went down with up with down went up with now but all in all still moving in the right direction and definitely weigh less than I did at the beginning of the year gala pretty good about myself but I do know I got a continue work on what I’m eating and getting some exercise.
Nothing to say….I am pissed…well not really. I messed up bad with food yesterday!!!
I am happily married and I have 2 really great kids so why isn’t my story being told. I have up and downs like most people do but as a rule I am a pretty happy person. I am happy even though I have faced bankruptcy several times. I am happy even though I was abused as a young girl. I am happy even though I have been betrayed by a close family member. I am happy even though my closest sister/friend died at a young age. I am happy even though mental illness run rampant in my family’s bloodline. I am happy and I choose to be happy.
However, I am not an anomaly. I know many happy Black women but why are our stories not told. Sure we have shows like Blackish and characters like the loving wife in This Is Us. Even on channels that cater to Black women we are categorized as successful yet bitter, lonely, love sick emotionally damaged women. Or we are categorized as the young urban street smart girl with a bad temper. Or my all time favorite the successful business woman that is confident, smart, educated, multilingual, kicks butt and take names and sleeps with everything that moves (men, women and teenagers…). I am over it. We have a choice now and in many cases(not all) we call the shots.
Please help me to understand. If we have choices now then why are we still choosing to watch the same stereo typical characters. By the way I live in Atlanta and the successful Black real wives (not girlfriends or side chicks) do not behave the way “those” women on those reality shows behave. I know there has to be a certain amount of drama and tension to make a show work however I think there is a lot of entertainment value in watching happy people figure out how to make their lives work for them and their family, friends and business associates. I see shows like Blackish, American House Wife, The Goldbergs and Fresh Off The Boat and I know there is an audience for family entertainment and against the grain characters. I also see movies coming out like Black Panther and I know we have made progress. I know we can do better. I know we will do better and I know there is an audience for Happy Black Women!
My weight is going down!!!